Uh, hi

It’s been awhile. Life has gone on. New job, old town. Man’s best friend, at least my dog, is no longer with me. I had to move back in with family. In a hometown that doesn’t feel like home. I’ve trained two bosses, this after was requested to replace the outgoing leader of the department that I worked in. I’ve been passed over three times for the same job. Only this time, I don’t really have to train my new leader. He was my peer. I had to watch two bosses almost apologize for not picking me. They literally justified why I got passed over again. I’m happy for him, but wondering what miracle I have to perform to get recognized in my store. And I don’t think anything I do will be good enough. I just can’t seem to feel slighted by those I trusted. And I feel like a spoiled child for being upset. But, nobody likes losing. And I lost, yet again. I’m good enough to train new coworkers and leaders, but not good enough to be one.

Will I ever truly be able to feel appreciated anymore, anywhere? No peace and quiet at home, no recognition at work. And no way to take any time off and get away from here for awhile. Yep, looks like this blog is my online window to the misery of my life. Sorry if this sucks, it matches my life right now.