Why do I even bother trying? I bust my a$$ working through being threatened cursed out and just plain beaten down by arguments with more idiots than nice customers for a commission that got eaten by taxes. I still have bills that must be paid and no help is coming from anywhere to help me with them. Most of my customers get their “checks” this weekend. My “taxes” paid their checks.

Think I’ll get any of it back? I don’t. But I’m going to work today for some more abuse. Like the good employee I am. I feel like Paul Lawrence Dunbar, wearing a smiling mask for the world, yet dying with each breath.

No way am I going to be able to take a vacation in the true sense. I get to work for my whole “vacation” this year. Repairs and cleaning for me! I might be able to get a day to not bust my ass. But don’t quote me on it, cause I probably won’t get any real rest. Soon enough, I won’t have any help around the house. Not like anything is being done in my absence anyway. My poor dog doesn’t get fed unless I feed him. All I want is to be able to enjoy my time off. Not worry about everything I have to do and wonder what I’m forgetting to do. But that’s all I can do when my life consists of working and coming home to more work. Guess I’ll rest when I’m dead. Cause while life lasts, I’ll be working.


2 thoughts on “WTF??

  1. Is there…is there any chance of your, um, relationship coming back? Because I just read something that tells me you’re being lied to…
    Or everyone else is, in a way that pretty much means you’re being lied to anyway.
    I’m really worried about you.

    • News on that front just keeps getting better all the time. This separation was only supposed to last until our daughter got settled. Then surgery for the mother in-law. Now she’s gotta have surgery out there. I don’t know wtf’s going on anymore with that. All I do know, is I’m cold, tired, and want life to ease up on kicking my ass.

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